I am listening to foreign radio in the middle of the night with the lights switched off and my computer on. It is vaguely comforting, like being somewhere else without the hassell of actually going. Or dreaming without sleeping. Even more comforting is that I don’t know what language it is that the presenter [...]

The phone rings. Caller ID says ‘unknown number’. An 07 mobile number not logged into the digital phone book. I pick it up.
There is a long confused silence. In the background I can hear the rustling of something. I think, maybe this person is calling from the confines of a park bush.
Hello? I say.
Hello, the [...]

My leeetle girl, she say you stick tongue at her. Eeez zees true?
At which point I nodded. The girl pulled her face into a grimace which I recognised as belonging to part of the make-tears-happen-quickly process.
I always telling her, zees bad zing to do, and now you do to her. The tone of [...]

I miss you.
I want to say be somewhere I can meet you, and I want to say, yeah, I’ll drive over later. There are two problems with the latter. It would be at least five hours of impatient sitting at a wheel in the dark. Squinting nervously at the car which pulls too close too [...]

Skinny-dipping at 3am, whisky and cigarettes by some lake with the moon reflecting off shoulders. White bra and undies, reckless inhibition and lemony face-masks, homemade wine and telling stories in the dark.
Love you plus one more than you can ever say.
To infinity, beyond and back.
That is how the game is won. Our secret, shhh, and [...]

I must stop grating my fingers with the cheese. The volume and mass of my thumb is not what it once was.

Lately I’ve trapped my words in a notebook of blue green swirls. Looking at it I get seasick. The brown leather spine clashes. When Judith comes round to get me to force her to study, I hide it behind the bookshelf.
(We both write about notebooks. Great minds think alike. That is no lie.)
She says, not [...]

My wrist, when I lick it, tastes of chlorine.
In between Primo Levi throwing me into a Friday funk and my daydreams of cold hard tiles and the dripping of a tap, that excitement of being seen, heard, found, and a hand-dryer pushing into my back, I think maybe I am a Sim. It is comforting [...]

Curiosity never kills the cat.
Four legs and nine lives and those amazing eyes, how could it?
I would like to swap lives with you for one day, and you wouldn’t be so angry. I’ve always wondered what it’s like to be someone else. Waking up you, it wouldn’t be as funny as Hot Chick, more nerve-wrecking [...]

I was walking past an open door with cold hot chocolate slopping over the sides of a nibbled styrofoam cup, dribbling down my rain-numbed hands, when it hit me. The smell of her hair, a pleasant, tropical tidal wave of herbal essences. Yes, oh yes! orgasmed a blonde, sun-drenched woman under a steaming shower on [...]